Bittersweet Mr. Quijano

some people knew me a lot, inside and out. those people who knew me a lot ought to have fun always. loitering the mall and going out on friday nights as well as sundays and sometimes MONDAYS (hahaha).
I have just been seperated from my current lover and as of now, i have this new one. My ex-lover and it lasted for 2 years and 5 months to be exact. well in the way, there were broke-ups, but we still counted that in. i really do love that person no matter what, before(haha). That person sometimes pisses me off, but just a meet-up in the mall makes me fine. often times we quarell and argue on things, on every topic we talk about. and seldom, we meet. maybe that's the reason why when i got angry and we planned to meet, that person relieves all the pain. i don't know but that's what i felt when that person is with me. challenges and trials were fought by us before(sharing).
presently, i think we were 2 months now living alone and trying to move on to the fact that we are no longer lovers and need to live with it.
i am the type of person that can't easily overcome the fact that my ex is dating someone. sometimes when i got a clue that my ex is dating someone, i will try to contact him and try to reconcile. (haha pathetic) but today, i saw myselfy as being self-centered and selfish and not to think and feel what others do. so now, i am trying to let our relationship be part of my history. i wont try to bother talking to my ex about reconcillation. but, you know guys, it's not that easy, you used to be talking to that person always, exchanging emails, text and talk over the phone, sometimes both of us sleep, eat, and play together. i miss all those things. i want to shout out so as to let this heartache be heard. i don't know if what i'm doing, not talking to that person, is the best thing to do. i said to myself not to bother my ex again 'coz it's just making things worst. everyday, after work i am playing warcraft dota to forget my ex, i play all night and go home late so when i got home, i will just change my dress and sleep all away.
my present lover is very different, but i am wishing that that person will not to say surpass my ex but to let me know that there is someone beside me caring, thinking and specially loving me.#edited