it's better than to give than to receive

my mom told me that when someone is asking/borrowing money, i should not ask or question the person for what he/she will do with it. just give the money because that's what you called an unconditional help.
it's hard! what she's digging into is that i should help other people in need.
No matter the use if it will be for good or for bad.
i really can't understand why she is saying this.

an awkward example is, if my friend has an addiction to drugs, and to he is asking money from me begging for some because he needs it for some personnal use wherein i know that he will just buy some addictive drugs. will i still give him money for the sake of helping because his reason is he will use it for personnal use. maybe that reason is that he will use it for his mom's medicine?

what will i do? it's just like im feeding his liesure or his addictions?

maybe it's really the time

I would say that it's the greatest thing that happened in my life.
Wonderful! But, all things should end?! or all happy things have it's own ending, happy or sad may be. i think i am the cause of these things, the outcomes, pero mahirap din i pacify. it can be that, i was forced to do so or intentionally wanted to do so.
what's the ground. what's the point. what's the subject. LOVE. hahahaha
our relationship never had a firm standing from the both of us. we were just living together not knowing why are we doing it. sometimes, we are fun. sometimes we argue, fight and make love. but we never talked of what each one of us is feeling towards each other. never had the time to talk, to not argue in decisions, never had the time to understand each feelings. no give and take. hmm... is it only me that's talking around here?

but at this moment. it all ended. gradual naman ung changes and ung pagkawala ng feelings so siguro no need to cry, no need to feel ashamed, no need to be stressed out with this. anyway this thing happened to me 2 years ago din. tsk. di na natuto.

wilbert, learn how you were before. school bahay school bahay. go infront of the pc and surf, play mmorpgs, read some books. stay away from busy areas, siguro mall lang naman, wag lang ung office kasi you need that to survive. have a goal! keep a steady mind and a healthy body. keep up with badminton and bowling... hehehe.... build a strong foundation with your friends(office/family/friend ni friend). keep going forward wilbert.