a hole has been filled and was fulfilled

as the year ends, gusto ko lang mag-add ng entry sa blogspot ko :)
a lot of things took place this year 2011. a lot of crazy things and changes happened in my life. a lot of people completed me and gave me reasons to move on and be happy. to say and learn from the past and say hello to the future.

i moved to a new place, a place where i can say mine.
a pet that makes me laugh and the best is that i found the person that truly can be considered as my better half. :) yeah, that's great! isn't it.

i hope that this happiness will continue on the year 2012.

Goodbye My Lover lyrics

Goodbye My Lover lyrics

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Chorus (2x)
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Chorus (2x)
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Chorus (2x)
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Outro (2x)
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Don't Go

Don't Go

You said, "I lied"
You screamed, I cried
You packed your things
You wanna leave
You get the car keys
And headed for the door

Now, I'm down on my knees
I'm beggin' you please
Don't go, don't go
Don't give up on us now
We can work it out
Don't go, don't go

Maybe I'm wrong and you're right
I said "I'm sorry"
No, I don't wanna fight
Just calm down
And hold me close
And dry the tears in my eyes

Why can't we kiss and make up
I don't want to ever break up
Why can't we forgive and forget
And stay together

Don't go
I'm down on my knees
Oh, baby, I'm beggin' you please
I'm beggin' you please
Don't go
Don't, don't go

i'll be alright

i'll be alright!

a good start to write a new blog!

here's another story that i want to share.

well of course another important part of my life.

the beginning

we met on a local irc channel and decided to meet.

went on my pad and got a very good start.

exchange of text messages and constant communication built our good foundation.

last week of june 2010 till july 5 (0705) we dated.

0705 was the official date and that started a new relationship.

that person showed me everything that i am looking for in a relationship.

gave me all that i want and it felt good.

some say comparison equates to evil but still i insist that this is the best.

we got some similarities and we really get along very well.

i think i can say that no one else can make me feel this way and only you can bring out all the best i can do and that you make me feel real good inside.

that person took care of me on a level no one can reach.

the climax

im not a perfect person.

i went into treachery and almost broken the relationship but that person gave me a chance I never got from any body.

Started a new and like they say that love is sweeter the second time around.

The end

I'm not a perfect person
Ther's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learnind
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just wnat you to know

I found the reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all you tears

Im so pissed with what I did.

This song ate me whole

Please come back

Will be missing the food you cook;

The love

The time we share

The jigsaw puzzle

The movies

The medias

The labas

The aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, ooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh

The tiyan

The meme

The kiss ( in a different tone)

The companionship

The ring to wake me up

as long as it matters - gin blossoms

How can I find something
That two can take
Without stumbling as we
Walk into our future's wake
I'm like a broken record
That you can play
Repeating as if it matters
Everything I want to say
I'll be all right
As long as it matters
As long as you're here with me now
Forget that time
It's nothing we touch and see
All this is fine
Even as it crashes down on me
I'm looking around
There's nothing that I could want
More than to tell you
There's no more than we've already got
I'll be all right
As long as it matters
As long as you're here with me now...
Forget that our time is almost up I'll be all right...

you

You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.

You pushed me up
When I’m about to give up;
You’re on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can’t help but show
You’ll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It’s your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I’m with you through all the way.

‘Cause it’s you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev’rything, you see,
When I know I’ve got you with me

You pushed me up
When I’m about to give up;
You’re on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can’t help but show
You’ll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It’s your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I’m with you through all the way.

‘Cause it’s you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev’rything, you see,
When I know I’ve got you with me.

It’s your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I’m with you through all the way.

‘Cause it’s you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev’rything, you see,
When I know I’ve got you with me.

Listen to Songs: http://videokeman.com/christian-bautista/you-christian-bautista/#ixzz1KYpb8U8l

i need you - leann rimes

I don’t need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I’ve always needed something
But I’ve got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You’re my only reason
You’re my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You’re the hope that moves me
To courage again
You’re the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it’s so amazing
’cause that’s just how you are
And I can’t turn back now
’cause you’ve brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

half crazy - freestyle

know I havent slept a week at all
since you've been gone
and my eyes are kinda tired
from crying all night long

know i've never been too good at cooking
just for one
it's so lonely here without you baby
come back home

coz i'm half crazy
feelin' sorry for myself
half crazy
worried you'd find someone else to love

know life hasn't been much fun at all
since you've been gone
and my eyes being to feel
each time I hear a song

i spent every minute asking myself
what went wrong
can't we try to talk it over baby
come back home

coz I'm half crazy
i'm feelin' sorry for myself
half crazy
worried you'd find someone else to love

but baby there is no one else
half crazy
for everything you saying
half crazy
no one else could love you like i do

so i'm half crazy
feelin' sorry for myself
half crazy
i'm worried you'd find someone else to love
but baby there is no one else

half crazy
for everything you saying
half crazy
no one else could love you
and no one else could ever be

half crazy
feeling sorry for myself
and I'm worried you'll find someone else
half crazy
feeling sorry for myself to love baby

the reason

I'm not a perfect person
Ther's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learnind
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just wnat you to know

I found the reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all you tears
That's why I need you to hear
[| From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/maroon-5-lyrics/the-reason-lyrics.html |]

I found the reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I found the reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I can wait forever

When you say, I miss the things you do,
I just wanna get back close again to you.
But for now, your voice is near enough,
How I miss you, when I miss you, love.
And though,
All the days that pass me by so slow
All the emptiness inside me flows, all around,
And there's no way out
I'm just thinkin' so much of you,
There was never any doubt...

I can wait forever, if you say you'll be there, too
I can wait forever, if you will, I know it's worth it all
To spend my life alone with you.

When it looked, as though my life was wrong,
You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong
I'll be here, when hope is out of sight,
I just wish that I was next to you tonight, and oh
I'll be reachin' for you even though,
You'll be somewhere else, my love will go
like a bird, on it's way back home
I could never let you go, and I just want you to know...

Where are you know?
Alone, with the thoughts we share
Keep them strong somehow,
And you know, I'll always be there...

I can wait forever, if you say you'll be there, too
I can wait, forever if you will, I know it's worth it all
To spend my life alone...
I can wait forever, if you say you'll be there, too,
I can wait, forever if you will, I can wait forever or more...
I can wait forever...

Most Played music on my list

I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could have made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky

And lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

I thought we'd be forever & always
You were serenity,
You took away the bad days
Didnt always treat you right
But it was ok,
I do somethin stupid

And u will still stay with me
But u can only go for so long
Doin the one you claim to love wrong
Before to much is enough
You look up and find your love gone and

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say good bye
Cause lighting don't strike
The same place twice
When you and i said good bye
I felt the angels cry

True love is a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night i hear the angels cry
True love is a gift

C'mon babe can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry
Baby I miss you
Know that i love you

whoah! so good!

whoah! so good!

first time in my life to have someone that is very supportive and understands me very well.

i have this feeling that this will last forever. why? take a look at this wilbert, he is a friend, a lover, a brother, a mentor, a father (lol).

i know you wilbert, you play a lot. you indulge into games to divert the feeling of loneliness. you have been in a world of oneness with yourself for quite sometime that's why you take part in the net to have friends online for you to have someone to talk to and smile. wilbert knows nothing about friends 'coz i know you were not good in keeping them because of reasons you would've not even dare or try to tell me. please take this deep inside of you to be open and to talk about everything. even the smallest thing and wierdest behaviours you have. i'm here all the way to comfort and company you in all the things you like very much. we have been into a lot these days. i even tried to play the games you like just to become one with you. and i think that's what you like most. i think you have this attitude that you like to get what you thought first you like to do. but please give me enough time to adjust myself to give my best to jive with you. thank god wilbert that you are still in your path of life here on earth. praise him that even though you have a lot of problems and challenges you can still count on him and especially me. you can do what you want. i support you on that. keep in mind that i love you and that you will be part of my life forever. i will make it up to you, and i promise to. after this and all has been done. i am part of you and will not let you go. hold me now, i really want to tell you i love you. after all that we have been through, im a part of you and i wont let that go.

bagay sa iyo to.

you dance a thousand times to a song that no one even hears. i can't believe my eyes seeing you here looking the way you are.

-########

it is really better this way!

it is really better this way!

i have been into a friendship that took for almost 6 years to know that we don't need each other. we have been living in a lie that all is good between us. i have regrets and i miss them all, but the good thing here is that i saw myself learning a lot. i have been into troubles but i cope up and is happy today.

i know all of you guys are also doing good. just take good care always. i may not be around with you anymore, in our gimmiks, night out but i'm still here doing good.

i know that time will tell when will we be back....

Wilbert Quijano

When I met you i was lost

I long for someone to love and hold

Letting fo of the past was done

Because i knew i found the one

Everything was so clear in a jiffy

Rushed it may seemed, but im happy

Time can only tell, what we will be

Beautiful you are to my eyes

A rare pieve of gem i found in the sea

Rightfully i wished you were mine

Rigthfully i knew you were mine

One thing i can offer is my heart.

God knows how much i love you from the start

A lost heart that was mine, finally found

Questions may linger in the air

Undoubtedly, my love is for you to heir

I never will lose sight of hope

Join me as we climb this slope

A slope of journey of the hearts

No bounderies, today it starts

Once you, one us, one love, forever im yours

from my ex aka green lantern

wilbert.hapy bday na lng, this would be the last. d b sa bi mo before sa day mo mkakapagmove n ka na sakin, pinangako din sa sarili ko ppkawalan na kita ngayon. hindi nga cguro tayo ung nakadestiny n magkatuluyan, tanggap ko na un,ok na ako ngaoyn. ngayon hindi na ako magiging malungkot pat maiicip ka, kc kaw nagturo sakin magmahal, salamat wilbert sa lahat lahat, hindi kita makakalimutan, sa muling pagkikita

you're you youquijano

ive learned to let go, but to move on is the one thing i haven't learned anyway. i never grew up. i still believe that there is always someone destined for and to be with me. di nman masamang umasa dba?

"PATIENCE IS THE ART OF HOPING"- ean lage ko naiisip kpag dmdating ung tyms na gsto ko ng gumive-up.

we all know that being hurt is really a hard thing to feel but there's no other way but to accept it. and move forward to another chapter of your life that awaits you there.

-finally im here, standing still ..

trying to get up again and face a new beginning. but thats TRUE!!

il always be here for anybody who needs me.

il always be the same me. before, during and even after anything.

and LAST i will not be tired of loving til i found the "SOMEONE of my LIFE!"

---wow a nice post from someone---

i can relate to this post deeply hurt.

wilbert is here, hoping and loving all the people around him.

keep a positive mind and ideals.

be a pessimists and you will learn a lot of things.

give and give. that's the new saying.

it's better than to give than to receive

my mom told me that when someone is asking/borrowing money, i should not ask or question the person for what he/she will do with it. just give the money because that's what you called an unconditional help.
it's hard! what she's digging into is that i should help other people in need.
No matter the use if it will be for good or for bad.
i really can't understand why she is saying this.

an awkward example is, if my friend has an addiction to drugs, and to he is asking money from me begging for some because he needs it for some personnal use wherein i know that he will just buy some addictive drugs. will i still give him money for the sake of helping because his reason is he will use it for personnal use. maybe that reason is that he will use it for his mom's medicine?

what will i do? it's just like im feeding his liesure or his addictions?

maybe it's really the time

I would say that it's the greatest thing that happened in my life.
Wonderful! But, all things should end?! or all happy things have it's own ending, happy or sad may be. i think i am the cause of these things, the outcomes, pero mahirap din i pacify. it can be that, i was forced to do so or intentionally wanted to do so.
what's the ground. what's the point. what's the subject. LOVE. hahahaha
our relationship never had a firm standing from the both of us. we were just living together not knowing why are we doing it. sometimes, we are fun. sometimes we argue, fight and make love. but we never talked of what each one of us is feeling towards each other. never had the time to talk, to not argue in decisions, never had the time to understand each feelings. no give and take. hmm... is it only me that's talking around here?

but at this moment. it all ended. gradual naman ung changes and ung pagkawala ng feelings so siguro no need to cry, no need to feel ashamed, no need to be stressed out with this. anyway this thing happened to me 2 years ago din. tsk. di na natuto.

wilbert, learn how you were before. school bahay school bahay. go infront of the pc and surf, play mmorpgs, read some books. stay away from busy areas, siguro mall lang naman, wag lang ung office kasi you need that to survive. have a goal! keep a steady mind and a healthy body. keep up with badminton and bowling... hehehe.... build a strong foundation with your friends(office/family/friend ni friend). keep going forward wilbert.

Use Server Controls Where Appropriate

Use Server Controls Where Appropriate

The HTTP protocol is stateless; however, server controls provide a rich programming model that manages state between page requests by using view state. Server controls require a fixed amount of processing to establish the control and all of its child controls. This makes server controls relatively expensive compared to HTML controls or possibly static text. Scenarios where server controls are expensive include the following:

• Large payload over low bandwidth. The more controls that you have on a page, the higher the network payload is. Therefore, multiple controls decreases the time to last byte (TTLB) and the time to first byte (TTFB) for the response that is sent to the client. When the bandwidth between client and server is limited, as is the case when a client uses a low-speed dial-up connection, pages that carry a large view state payload can significantly affect performance.
• View state overhead. View state is serialized and deserialized on the server. The CPU effort is proportional to the view state size. In addition to server controls that use view state, it is easy to programmatically add any object that can be serialized to the view state property. However, adding objects to the view state adds to the overhead. Other techniques such as storing, computed data or storing several copies of common data adds unnecessary overhead.
• Composite controls or large number of controls. Pages that have composite controls such as DataGrid may increase the footprint of the view state. Pages that have a large number of server controls also may increase the footprint of the view state. Where possible, consider the alternatives that are presented later in this section.

When you do not need rich interaction, replace server controls with an inline representation of the user interface that you want to present. You might be able to replace a server control under the following conditions:

• You do not need to retain state across postbacks.
• The data that appears in the control is static. For example, a label is static data.
• You do not need programmatic access to the control on the server-side.
• The control is displaying read-only data.
• The control is not needed during postback processing.

Alternatives to server controls include simple rendering, HTML elements, inline Response.Write calls, and raw inline angle brackets (<% %>). It is essential to balance your tradeoffs. Avoid over optimization if the overhead is acceptable and if your application is within the limits of its performance objectives.

Source: http://www.daniweb.com/forums/thread1597.html#

24 years old

My gg-client game buddies were saying "24 ka na pala! tanda mo na pala kuya!". I don't know how and what to say with these people. Well to tell you the truth, I will be 24 years old this coming July 12, 2009 and I can not feel being 24. I still play a lot. Play video games, arcades. Paradox of growing up is that I lay off at drinking and going to parties. I smoke, not much. I also got this new hobby. I am collecting the tags of my new shirts. I am creating a collage of those tags on my walls with my anime posters. AND i also collect hooded shirts.
I am now in line with web applications. I can already widened my arms to catch what IT has now.

Wish List :
1) Nintendo wii
2) laptop
3) itouch
4) video card
5) ram ddr2